One of my clients today pointed out that I’ve been overbooked. It hit hard, and also made me realize how much stuff I’m involved in that is not important. The last two to three weeks have been consumed with computer issues and trying like mad to finish things for deadlines.
Stretched thin is the understatement of the year. I’ve barely been out to see the kids. I want to be out there with them. I need to be. And yet I have clients asking for their documentst, obligations that need to be filled… at the expense of what is really important to me. This has to change.
I’ve talked to several friends about this on many occassions. They have all listened patiently and waited for me to do something about it.
Today I did. I resigned from several organizations I’m in (including one where I hold a leadership position). I’m trying desperately to pull back and refocus on what is important: my horses and my research.
I feel like I’ve lost myself in all of the work and things I do for others. No one’s fault but my own.